Things Modern Cinema Has Taught Me About High School

High school never ends, does it? I was at a casting the other day with a bunch of Ford models, and at first I felt like the geek who is suddenly invited to sit at the cool table* at lunch.

These were girls I've seen on the pages of magazines and that my agents had shown me and said, "look more like her if you can." And now I was at a casting with them. We were up for the same job. As in, there are people in the world who would put me in the same group as them. If that sounds like false modesty, it isn't. I think I'm pretty awesome. I just never really thought of myself as that particular brand of awesome.

No, that's not intimidating.

I sat myself down and said hi, and joined the waiting room banter but after a few minutes I realized that no one was listening to a word I was saying. I tried to join in but they just pretended I wasn't there. Suddenly I felt more like the theatre geek with braces who stumbled onto the cool table by accident.

I had a flashback to junior year when 2 girls in my class wore the same shirt and all the other girls said, "oh my god, I have that shirt" and I was the only lame weirdo who didn't shop at Abercrombie and Fitch or where the fuck ever.

As I left,  I realized how bizarre and stupid it was that I let that get to me. I mean, for Christ's sake, here I was: a model at a high profile casting with a bunch of famously stunning women and I felt like... a loser? All because some bored girls didn't pay attention to me? What the hell did I care if Lula** the Swiss plus supermodel liked me? If they didn't need to talk to me, why did I need to talk to them?


So maybe high school does end after all.  When we decide that we no longer care about the cool kids, they're not cool kids, they're just people. Maybe even people that inspire you to better yourself. I may still be a theatre geek with braces on the inside but I'm also a model on the outside and maybe even sometimes a good model and maybe even once in a while a grownup.




* Not that I know much about that since my high school had neither a cafeteria nor a cool table, but modern cinema has taught me that "the cool table" is a much hyped phenomenon in normal high schools with more than 100 students.
**Not a real name.


P.S. Is it just me or does Rachel McAdams look way too old to be a high school student? How was I so fooled when that movie came out?

Deep Thoughts

Because I am really deep. So: hair. It's on our heads. And I've been thinking about it a lot lately. Mainly because several people have suggested that I, "like, never, ever cut my hair," which, obviously, really makes me want to cut my hair. Here are some of my shorter lengthed inspirations:

I just love that wavy bob because it says to me, "you wouldn't have to learn how to use a hair straightener, Sarah." I really like that in a coif. But then I think back to the shoot in Germany where they gave me huge, bouncy, 80s style curls and I fucking loved it. Yes, brushing it out was a bitch and I didn't exactly fit through every doorway, but still. I felt like a badass.

I also sometimes felt like a muppet.

So, here's some inspiration for that Pre-Raphaelite style wild hair.

And then I think about summer and I think about long, flowy mermaid hair which is so awesome until you actually get to the beach when it gets tangled and in your face but still...looks awesome.

 

So those are my super deep thoughts about hair. Give me a break, it's before 10 on a Saturday and I've been awake for 2 hours with no coffee.

Bloggers Are Taking Over the World

Click here to see an article I wrote about how bloggers are taking over the world. I was a little hesitant to send this to my editor, because I really love the blogging platform and what it's done both to the fashion world and to journalism. I think it's made it more honest, accessable, interesting and competitive. But I also think we should be aware of the pitfalls that come with it so we can avoid them.

P.S. The editor added the last line of that article, the little beast. I only ever get 3rd row at best.